The Last Rehearsal of the Season; The Hardest Day of the Year

The rehearsals for this season are finished. The shows and the kids are headed to WGI World Championships tomorrow…

I have to be honest. This is always one of the hardest days of the year. The months of preparation are over and all I can do is sit back and watch what happens. I’m not a parent but I always imagine this is what sending your child off to school for the first time feels like. You spend so much time planning and teaching and nurturing and advising and living and dying on every moment and then all of a sudden you no longer have control and they are off on their own. All I can think of right now is: have I done the right things? Have I made the correct choices? Will they be ok? Will all of the blood, sweat, tears, frustration and hard work be enough to allow them to reach for their dreams and feel like it is all worth it?

I never know. I can’t get those thoughts out of my head. I just want them to show the world how incredibly special they are. Every time this happens I feel like a little part of me walks out into the big harsh world and I obsess about my role in its preparation. I love it and I hate it equally. I am always proud of the intense effort and love that is behind all of it but I have to admit that a small part of me dies on the last count of every last run-through. It goes from what could be to what IS. I can never really wrap my head and heart around that fact. At the end of the day, I understand that I love the process infinitely more than I love the product. It is what, who and why I am. I can only look forward to the the next beginning and the next opportunity to touch lives, inspire dreams and produce magic.

No matter the result, I always feel incredibly blessed.


The process is always more important than the product.


My Decatur Central teams are heading to WGI. The Winds Ensemble is performing their 2017 show “The Emerald Order” and the Indoor Percussion Ensemble is performing their 2017 show “The First Draft.” Good luck to my kids and all the students/artists competing this weekend.

And here’s a good spot to congratulate the Miliani Winter Guard for their 4th place finish at WGI World Championships in Scholastic A.

I love my students.



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